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Sloooowly mending

I had surgery on Wednesday. Minor surgery, but surgery just the same. I came home and slept for 5 hours on Wednesday afternoon, and really was feeling pretty good – just a little groggy.

Michael farmed out the kids on Thursday, so I was home alone to rest. I woke up feeling a little uncomfortable, so I took the prescribed pain medication.

Big mistake.

I was so weak and so sick for the rest of the day – I couldn’t even get up off the couch, except to throw up. I didn’t want to eat, and I couldn’t get up to eat even if I wanted to, which made me even weaker. I had searing pain and tightness in my chest and in my back. I don’t remember the last time I was so miserable.

And here’s the one thought that came from this experience: I’m not afraid to die, but now I’m a little more fearful of dying. Sorry – I don’t mean to be morbid – but blame it on the Vicodin. This is what was going through my head. Also, I should mention, that when I woke up in recovery after my surgery, I had an oxygen mask on, but I couldn’t breathe, no one was there, and I couldn’t keep my eyes open and I couldn’t move. It was more than a little scary. I was fine after about 10 minutes – and I knew I would be. I kept telling myself to hold on for just a few more minutes, then I would be able to breathe. And move. And keep my eyes open.

If I could write the script – if I had any say whatsoever – I would die in my sleep at a ripe old age. No pain. No fear. No struggle to breathe.

Just a few little happy thoughts to start 2008!

On a lighter note, I have to brag on Griffin. As much as he makes me crazy, he really is the most tenderhearted of my three. After I woke up from my long slumber on Wednesday afternoon, he came into my room and snuggled up with me, adjusting the blankets, patting my arm, asking me how I was doing. He even brought me “Bluey,” his very treasured blue blanket, and a teddy bear to sleep with. He wanted to help Daddy fix my dinner, and he sat up in bed with me and read books to me. He melts my heart!


3 thoughts on “Sloooowly mending

  1. ugh!!Vicodin made me really sick, too! I had my appendix out and threw up the whole next day at home. It was almost worse than the surgery!!I hope you are getting some fresh flowers and dinners out of this. You should try to at least milk it! :)Get better soon!!!

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