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From the Corner of My Couch – Issue 10

After you read this, go back to here and read the last comment. Michael’s thinking we could use this to our advantage and keep her single for a very long time!

Amazing Love

When I was pregnant with our first child, Meghan, I found a poem that I later added to her baby book because it so perfectly fit my experience as a new mom.

First Born
by Leslie Garcia

The day you were born
I don’t remember
If it was warm or not
If the sun shone
Or rain
Splashed across the sky
Obscured
By pain and doubt
But I know
That I held you
For hours,
Stared at you
In awe –
And felt the warmth assault me
Felt all the old forgotten smiles
Creep back –
Until I wasn’t sure
Which of us
Had just been born.

OK, so I wasn’t so completely overwhelmed with her on the day she was born. I was exhausted and…well, drugged out of my mind. (Ah, narcotics!) But a few months later, once I had gotten used to this little visitor, once I was getting a reasonable amount of sleep, once I felt like my boobs weren’t going to fall off – yes, then I was completely overwhelmed with the depth of love I had for this tiny, helpless baby girl. I felt that I had finally realized my calling and my purpose, and I was more alive than I had ever been. It actually became a point of conflict between Michael and me. He didn’t really enjoy hearing me say, “I’ve just never loved anyone so much!”

I was reminded of this season of my life again last Sunday morning when we sang, “God is bigger than the air I breathe…” and I thought about the vastness of God, and that every part of His being is infiltrated with this incredible love for us. For me. For you. His children. It is a love so incomprehensibly big and overwhelming and all-encompassing. The love I have for my kids? Only a tiny glimpse of the love that He feels for me. How can I wrap my brain around that? God holds the entire universe – think about how enormous that is! – in the very palm of His hand. That’s how big He is. And that is how big His love is.

My kids are free to step out in courage because they know the unconditional love of their mom and dad. They can swing a little higher, go down the big slide, take off the training wheels. They know, no matter what, that they are loved, and that gives them the guts to try big things.

I, too, can be courageous. I can be bold. I can take that daring leap of faith across the great chasm of the unknown. No matter what, He loves me – with a passionate, consuming, affectionate, crazy-about-you kind of love! I am free from fear, free from doubt, free from insecurity.

And for you, dear sister,

I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge – that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. (Ephesians 3:17-19)

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2 thoughts on “From the Corner of My Couch – Issue 10

  1. Love that poem too … do you think there’s any chance I gave it to you? 🙂 We found that poem during a trip to Seattle before we had Elijah and then tracked it down after he was born. It’s such a great poem!

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